Feeling lost without him
Feeling empty too
I used to be my daddy's girl
This I know was true
Now that we have split apart
Gone our separate ways
I prayed to God each night
To bring us together back someday.
Yet I fear this is impossible
Not right no anyway.
I still hold out hope
To be my daddy's girl again someday
Yet still all i can say is
I'm feeling lost without him
Feeling empty too
Dear God I'm still praying
Please oh please help me to get through

my new life ahead

♥ 11:39 PM

my terrapin died today.
feeling down.

gdbye tepy~
i always love you.

♥ 6:55 AM

Saying "thank you" may be the two hardest words that friends share. We like to see ourselves as independent and not needing anyone's help. When a friend does something for us, it is difficult to humble ourselves by thanking them. Believe it or not, as strong as your need is to believe yourself independent, your friend may have an even stronger need to hear the words "thank you". Your friend may see that he is the one who is always doing the thanking and will appreciate that he is also a contributor to the friendship.

♥ 8:51 PM

If you looked beyond who you think is me
If you looked beyond what you see

Would you see my love
Would you see my pain
Would you see my fear
Would you see my heart

If you looked beyond what you think is me
If you looked beyond what you see

Would you see me...

♥ 1:31 AM

So confused
Not knowing what to do
I love you so much
But I love him too

Most of the time
all we ever do is fight
I really don't have a clue
on how to make it right

I want to be with you
But he is never off my mind
I'm sorry that I am hurting you
I'm sorry I'm that kind

Why do I still love my ex
I ask myself everyday
I have you now
But I just want to hold him and say

I miss you so much
You are the love of my life
I want to be with you forever
I want to be your wife

He would never hurt me
Curse at me or lie
So that is why I have to say
I'm sorry and good-bye.

♥ 9:40 PM

To: Johan Iskandar


you made me feel amazing
like i am the world's princess
yet this feeling sometimes worries me
because you weren't my dream guy
and may never be.....

i love you so..
that's forever true
but to forget him its just so hard
i can't hide this anymore...
he's not my dream guy either..
but the way he made me feel
no special words needed
he made me feel so special and attached
that's make me attached to him forever..

knowing now he's in love with me
i don't regret that i want to be with him
but there's a feeling
that's really sad inside
of wanting to be with him
because he could be the guy in my dream..

really hurts when facts come
when i am already with you
I am happy to be with you
as well with him..
he doesn't make me feel like a most beautiful princess

this is complicated to me
but i will try harder to work on our relationship
and keep working
and forget what i use to have with him..

but what if i can't..
who should i let go..
him
or
you...

♥ 3:59 AM

Some people might say life sucks
or life is full of shit
While other people say life is beautiful
or life is full of surprises
I must say, I agree with all those
Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it
Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness
Life is about happiness
Life is about pain
Life is miserable
Life is about loss
Life is about smiling
Life is about crying
Life is about love
Life is about laughter
Life is about learning from your mistakes
Life is horrible
Life is dumb
Life is awesome
Life is depression
Life is tears
Life is sorrow
Life is anxiety
Life is Bullshit
Life stinks
Life sucks
I could go on and on and tell you all about life
But I'm not here to sort this out for you
cuz..
Life is all about you and how you treat it
You criticizes it...well, you're actually criticizing yourself
You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you
Life is you so be careful how you describe it

♥ 7:33 AM

I wish I could be
the face you see
when you close your eyes and sleep

I wish I were the photo in your frame
and that my name
was the song you'd always sing

I wish I had the shoulder
you'd cry on
when things don't go your way

I wish I could tell you
how I'm feeling
well, maybe some day

I wish I could be
the one you'd run to
when your life won't treat you right

I wish I could be
the one you'd want to
be with for the rest of your life

I wish that I could
hold you close
be the one you need the most

I wish I could
I wish I could
I wish I could be with you

I wish you would
wrap your arms around me
whisper 'how ya doin?'
in my ear

Sometimes
these nights get lonely
how I wish that you were here

I wish that I could
hold your hand
try to make you understand

That meetin' you
turned my life around
I never knew what I'd found
'til now

I wish I was a chapter
in your life story
the one without an end
livin' happily ever after
wanna be your closest friend

Wanna love that's true
eternally
wish I meant to you
what you mean to me

I wish I could be
what's on your mind
when all you do is smile

I wish you'd call me
all the time
number 1
on your speed dial

I wish that we could dance the night away
under moonlight

I wish I may
I wish I might
some day
if just for one day

I wish I could
I wish I could
Be with you

♥ 6:17 AM

I'm wore out... burned out... tired
I dream... for just one day...
of peace... quiet... restful sleep
hands cover my eyes... I just weep

I'm just so tired...
this ain't life... ain't death either
just a numb state of confusion
where stress and responsibility become one

I forgot how it feels
to be alive... without worry
I stare... at what... I don't know
I'm numb... defeated... tired

I wish I could cry
to let others know I'm scared
the mind is in overdrive
trying to find answers

I'm tired of the questions
just want to run away
everyday I die a little bit
and I don't stop it

I'm tired of being tired
mentally drained
physically weak
I just don't care

I'm tired of asking for help
I'm tired of begging and pleading
I'm tired of hoping for a day...
that will never come

I am so damn tired...

♥ 9:33 PM

This ill temper I have is making me mad
I blow up and I don’t know why
I wish for just a moment I could handle my anger right
I wish for just a moment I could love you right
I wish my attitude would just go away
I wish my anger would stay at bay
This outlook I have on life needs to change
This outlook I have you needs to say the same
I love you deep down inside
I wish you would see
That you’re the only prince for me

The anger I have deep in side
Comes out when I least expect it
This anger I have in me should just go away
This anger I have is an annoyance
This anger I have has messed my life up
This anger I have is stupid
Anger you have messed up my marriage
Anger you have messed up my life
Anger you have destroyed who I am inside and out
Anger you are the devil
Anger you are all that is bad
This anger I have in me has made me fight
A fight that was not worth it

Anger you made me hit the wrong person
Anger you made me do the wrong things
Anger you are the feeling that I would never miss
Anger you have caused me so much sorrow
Anger you have caused nothing but grief.
Anger just go away

♥ 7:12 AM